Death by God's wrath should have been ours. We qualify for and deserve it. But only Christ Jesus is qualified to pay for all sins of all men; He stood before judgment for this purpose. He saw you, your sin, and the cross - and deliberately went through with the Father's plan.
Your existence, your salvation, your vocation, were God's choice and His doing. All you can do is continue, through life, through the race you are in! Where you are is where you should be; your purpose is to exude the One in control of you, as a clear glass lamp permits the light. Therefore (v. 12) fulfill the purpose of God. Spread the Gospel of life and divine love!
Soli Deo gloria.